Showing posts with label lies. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lies. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Tough

Its tough...

Tough to deal with sometimes. I know I have my flaws. I tend to have in my mind, subconsciously sometimes, that if I don't see something as a problem than its not one. That's only SOMETIMES, but it has happened before.

Something else is tough. I know way more about this girl than she thinks I do. I know how she somehow hates me. And how whenever she says she's mad and then says its cool, she really just bottles up all that anger. How she's thought about doing things to damage our relationship, and how she just won't talk to me because she's selfish sometimes.

But, if I call her out on it, she'll never admit to it. Even though I have hard evidence of all these things. We can clear things up. She just needs to listen to me.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Yeah... I Gotta Go Pee

So... I have to pee pretty bad, and its almost time to go to class.

My musical selection for the moment includes Adele, James Morrison, this one song (I Am Love) by the Jackson 5 and alot of old jazz (Coltrane, Brubeck, Stan Getz etc... )

As for my last post, I don't understand and don't think I will for a very long time.
She was mad at me yesterday because I told her there were strippers at the bday party for my cousin over the weekend. If possible, I would leave the room, but if not I was sitting in a chair playing uno on my phone because I genuinely was no interested. But I guess I'm guilty by association... I was in the room so I MUST have done something bad... something that would make her not want me to touch her at all... something that made her kick me out her house this morning... which never happens. Always hiding thigns from me, and always lying to me and telling me things are okay. When this blown up and she finds out im completely innocent of whatever im being accused of, someone might feel pretty bad about themselves.

I need to study more... my chemistry grade is SHIT and I know it. If I just read the text in my Jazz Theory class and do my projects in Video Field Production I'll end up with good grades. Lets see how it goes then.

Off to my jazz theory class now. Just more time for me to dwell on life...

Later...