The time that most people take to sleep...
The time that rids itself of the sun but brings the moon...
The time that brings forth a whole different set of feelings from the 'daytime'...
The time when most people are tired...
If you're still awake like me, this is the time of day for deeper reflection; more time to think about everything. This is usually time we spend in solitude for no particular reason at all other than its rude to be company at someone's house so late unless your circumstance allows for it or you can't help but be there.
This is the time of day where noises are brought to a lower level, and people listening to music pull out their headphones.
As I lay on my bed listening to music through my headphones, I;m thinking of one word in particular.
MEDIOCRITY
Now if you were to go to someone and tell them that you were MEDIOCRE would quickly try and change your mind, but in reality this rarely ever works. It's not always about what people think about YOU, but what you think of yourself.
I can't get away from the fact that I see myself is MEDIOCRE in areas all across the board.
I see my myself as MEDIOCRE in areas of creativity, musical talent, athleticism, academics, looks, self-esteem, self-expression. Some of these things I do better than others, but most of them I feel like I'm just floating around average.
I want to get better. I want to be a better student, a better musician, a better lover, a better ME.
They say that no one knows whats best for you but YOU, so when I find out how to make myself the best I can then I will surely act upon it.
~Maybe tomorrow. peace
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