Anyway... from the last post... things were cleared up completely... and life was better than ever. now let me tell you about the Four Sides of Destruction... aka the Honesty Box. Now the Honesty Box is an application on some blog sites that allows people to post what they thinks about you, but to do it annonomously. Of course there will be some who abuse this application and decided to post LIES is peoples' Honesty Box.
Two days ago, i noticed a certain someone was MISSING from this site I usually go to. Her profile was completely gone and every single picture of her, and me with her was gone. The next day, after waiting for to contact me, becuase she had cutt herself off completely from everyone, I got thru to her via instant message and the first thing she typed was this obnoxious passage that talked about my "spots" and the end of the passage read "still yours ?" So at first I was VERY confused about what she was getting at.... Then she typed the message in again line by line... and told me that someone knows an awful lot about where my 'spots' are... even though the 'spots' mentioned were general 'spots' that alot of people have.
That was the last I heard from her...
What a nail in the FUCKING tire. The bad in this situation can be boiled down to three main points...
1. The whole Honesty Box thing had happened before... Someone did it over the summer time and this happened. We eventually esablished that it had nothing to do with me because it didn't. This is the second time around and again, I have NO idea who wrote this. I don't know if things are gonna quite go the same way.
2. I have NO control over what happens. Although I maked it a priority to be the best guy ever, I have these problems come up. It sucks that all I can do is sit... and wait... until she's ready to talk to me... She has to believe that I have done/ am not doing ANYTHING to make anyone say the things they said. I could never do that to her...
3. Everyone else seems to believe me because they KNOW I wouldn't do anything to make this situation come up. I know she knows too... but she's shielded by anger something serious right now... I just hope things don't go the wrong way.
All I can do is wait... Which is the WORST feeling in the world right now. I have faith... that someone I am connected to as deep as I am will see the thruth very soon. But we've taken SO many blows that I'm not sure if that will happen anytime soon.
People that know me and her together know that I wouldn't do this/wish this upon ANYONE. Whoever is responsible must REALLY hate me or her, or must be REALLY jealous. The last time it happened we never found out who it was, so it was likely to happen again. And as for whoever did it...I'm not completely broken... because I don't break... so if u must try, leave HER out of it.
I'm hurting... I'm not numb at all... so every little bit hurts... from the disactivating of that account on that website, to not being able to talk AT ALL for the rest of the day and the next day after that... to the message, to the fact that I have NO clue who it is/could be, to the fact that she might believe this random ignorant piece of shit of a person, to the fact that I am seeing my most important relationship here on earth crumble right in front my eyes...
All because of the Honesty Box.
So today... I sit and wait... and wait... and wait. For My Rocket to Come of course... Just me and my ipod... my guitar and a backpack. I need to leave this horrible place and go back to the real world where I'm happy like im supposed to be.
