Don't Sing the Harmony to Jingle Bells.. You WILL Look Bad

So today is Christmas and everyone is all cheerful and happy and giving presents and hugs and kisses and spreading what we call the 'Holiday Cheer.' Today I am happy... pretty happy. I've been almost just as happy as everyone else. A few hours before today though.... COMPLETE different story...


I know everyone has had that feeling that comes when something you have a STRONG passion about gets a little shaky.. and then more shaky... and then almost to its breaking point.
And I know everyone has had that feeling of uncertainty... wen you just don't know about anything and there is no way to find out about it.
... and through all this... you're gonna be away from this passion for an extended period of time. It puts stress upon you in GREAT amounts. While the S P A C E is what needs to happen, the process will be EXTREMELY hard o deal with...

And while I take these blows to my chest over and over again... at the end of the day I get to rip open my shirt and show that 'S' on my chest... cuz I'll be stronger than ever..... I'm doing this for us.

I had a slight reconnection last night that made me the happiest camper ever... so I KNOW everything will be okay... People have told me how unbelievably strong I am... I've doubted myself before but they were definitely right when they told me.... I'm giving this thing my ALL and I know the other side of the equation is in it for US too... so no worries.


Some of my friends are going trough some TOUGH times right now... I know most of them might never see this but to the ones that do...



Free yourself because it is the only way... If you need to get an issue out, then talk to someone... Therapeutic venting is one of the BIGGEST stress relievers EVER. Whether it be someone who had to do with the problem or not, talk to someone... because it could save your life.

Those hands are putting it back together :-)



So... Merry Christmas to everyone... and Happy New Years if I don't get back here in time.

DUDE !!

yeah man... I mean.. DUDE wtf !!


That's what I wanna say ALL the damn time forreal... It jus feels like nothing is going right...

WAY too much work... people gettin a lil on edge before finals week...the town I'm in SUCKS... and on top of ALL THAT....

I lost weight and cant fit in my damn pants no more.... AIN'T that some shit...

I had 3 papers due in one class, final projects due in 2 others, and like 3 long ass homework assignments for the other... and this is ALL in a week and a half... That's not cool...


SO... DUDE wtf maaaan...

LAY OFF !!

WELL....

Its been a lil bit and a few things happened since then... a couple failed tests... a couple performances...

first off a random bit of phototography...





that would be the door and my ironing board...


anyway... About 2 and a half weeks ago I got my braces off... something I've been waiting on for 3 and a half years...






On the 18th and 19th my school's jazz ensemble combo had a gig in ocean pines... which is about 15 mins away from Ocean City. We played a few songs before and during the intermission for a show the old folks community was putting on... We definitely thought it was gonna be an event where we played FOR the crowd...
but we were definitely background music... We were also supposed to have some sort of a scholarship fund set up and we made enough money to buy a new T.V..... kinda sad... OH WELL.

While on the music topic... I DEFINITELY feel some sort of breakthrough coming soon.... It sucks right now because I feel like I can't do ANYTHING... but something is coming soon... at least I hope so...

So until then, I'll keep playin my sax and strummin to whatever I can...

DUECES !!

The 21st

The first one...

I have found that although I DESPISE writing... use of a blog is a GREAT release; especially with all the things I have been through over the last 3 or so years. I stopped using a previous blog due to the fact that it wasn't --cool-- to use it anymore. But now I realize the release therapy I can get from it so here goes... :-)


I don't wanna seem like a gloomy sort of person, cuz I'm the COMPLETE opposite of that... so I will say I have had a GREAT day :-)

next time...